Gabourey Sidibe Discusses Weight Loss Surgery And Struggles With Mental Health In New Memoir

Gabourey Sidibe recently revealed in her new memoir, This Is Just My Face: Try Not To Stare, that she had weight loss surgery in May 2016, and how she struggled with mental health throughout the years.

READ: Gabourey Sidibe & Serayah Are CoverGirls For New ‘Empire’ Inspired Makeup Collection

The 33-year-old actress told People that she decided to get the surgery after finding out her older brother, Ahmed and her both have Type 2 diabetes. “I just didn’t want to worry,” she said. “I truly didn’t want to worry about all the effects that go along with diabetes. I genuinely [would] worry all the time about losing my toes.”

READ: Gabourey Sidibe’s Untitled Memoir Is On Our List For Must-Have Books

After trying to lose weight naturally for over more than a decade, she decided it was time for a change. “My surgeon said they’d cut my stomach in half. This would limit my hunger and capacity to eat. My brain chemistry would change and I’d want to eat healthier. I’ll take it! My lifelong relationship with food had to change,” she writes in her memoir.

“The surgery wasn’t the easy way out. I wasn’t cheating by getting it done. I wouldn’t have been able to lose as much as I’ve lost without it,” she continued.

Sidibe also details her struggle with depression and her body image, which she went to therapy for. “I know I’m beautiful in my current face and my current body. What I don’t know about is the next body,” she affirms in the book. “I admit it, I hope to God I don’t get skinny. If I could lose enough to just be a little chubby, I’ll be over the moon! Will I still be beautiful then? S—. Probably. My beauty doesn’t come from a mirror. It never will.”