What’s your relationship with him now?
Well, we’re in the middle of getting divorced so, you know, I really don’t want to talk about that so much. It’s kinda touchy. But I have a very great album talking about all the things that I’ve been through in the past.
You guys were still together after it happened?
Yeah, we stayed together, had two more children. Things never got better. You think things will get better; it never got better, so I had to do what I had to do.
Do you think people perceive you as crazy?
Yeah, I think people perceive me as that, which doesn’t bother me because I’ve learned to get over it after 10 years for God’s sake, let the shit go. People won’t let it go. But like I said, I had to get out of a situation. Any woman in this world that was put in the situation that I was put it would’ve done the same thing and second of all, people get it twisted ’cause they think it was a big butcher knife but it wasn’t nothing but a little itty bitty paring knife, which is about as big as your pinky on a little bitty woman. It was basically to get him off me. I ain’t out here for people to judge me. I’m out here for my music. I just want people to be happy, love real R&B, not this new junk that’s out now. That’s what I’m here for. I’m here to make people happy, sing to me and make people’s souls feel good. People are very critical. People walk up to you and be like, “Bitch you crazy.” And I’m like, “You don’t know me!”
Anything you think you’ve improved on vocally or songwriting wise?
My songwriting. My singing, it just is what it is so I don’t really know if I’ve gotten any better or any worse or I’m the same. To me I’m the same, but with my writing I think I’ve gotten a lot better. I have a lot to write about, you know, real stuff that women, even men relate to ’cause we all go through it at some point in our life. I think I’ve gotten a lot better at writing, more free. I used to be so closed in and shy about it but now I’m like it is what it is. Let people hear my story so they can know what to do in this situation.
Has going through all the drama made you a better writer?
Oh yeah. It makes it easier for me to write. I think when you have a story to talk about in your songs it makes your music better so definitely. I mean I don’t like that I had to go through that stuff but if you don’t go through nothing you ain’t got nothing to talk about.
What contemporary artists are you listening to?
I love Joe. I like all the male artists ’cause I’m a female so I hear girls singing all the time. I love listening to Joe ’cause he still has some pretty good R&B right now. I mean he’s kinda gotten off track somewhat but he’s still trying to keep it as R&B as he can. He stays in my iPod.
Anything you want to add about the album or what you’ve got coming up this year?
It is a very good album. It’s featuring Keke Wyatt, all Keke Wyatt. I want my fans to remember me how they know how I am. I love to sing. Sing sing. I love my fans and I’m grateful for all the ones who’ve stuck by my side and I appreciate this interview. ––Clover Hope