Peep the NBC News report on The Michael Jackson Tapes, a book by MJ's friend and adviser Rabbi Shmuley Boteach, based on 30 hours of taped interviews with the legend from 2000. Among the inner-most thoughts divulged: MIchael's fear of old age, his repulsing at his appearance and abuse of prescription drugs. It's perhaps Michael's most lucid look at the man in the mirror.