Balance & Options → DJ Quik (2000)
“I wasn’t giving it my all on this album. I was ready to be done with the business as far as being an artist. I didn’t think I was keeping up where the trends were going. I wasn’t rapping about the same things that everybody else was. I was pretty much just showing my prowess in the studio. Some people say Balance & Options is one of their favorite records. Me, I was just trying to build the career of Mausberg and pass him the gangsta rap torch because he had it. He had that in spades. I wanted to get him out there. But then they fucking murdered him. I had to finish his record and my record while he was dead. So I don’t think I was into the music. My mind was somewhere else. I was insane.
I crashed my motorcycle just stressing about Berg. I ended up in the hospital. Again, I was already suffering from PTSD from two years ago, and now Mausberg is dead. So what saved me? Gallons of vodka. I drank until I was numb. I tried to escape reality. I think I might have been slightly suicidal back then.”