CIVIL WRITES: Pen Pal Paradox

I lost a lot of money in the last year. Many of y’all can relate. Lay-offs, work shortages and budget slashes hemorrhaged savings accounts. 401Ks were cashed out. Bankruptcy filed. Peter got stuck up to pay Paul.  In true American fashion we too often found ourselves in the red––in debt. Yet there’s a polar difference between my money loss gripe and that of the economic victim: I’m not a victim. The aforementioned aren’t what I’d consider “losing” money. Instead simply surviving in a recession. The money I “lost” was actually at the hands of loved ones who treat jail like a revolving door.

These days my frustration, equally shared between them and myself, is peeking. I’m aware that the system is designed to entrap African-American men. More aware that most convicted African-Americans will be socially and professionally ostracized for the remainder of their lives. But I am aware. Friend and fam, why the fuck aren’t you? Or are you and simply choose to loiter in ignorance’s bliss?

You’re one of my closest relatives, one of my oldest friends; and you’re not only forcing me to witness you killing yourself (dreams, relationships etc) but you’re burdening me. Weakening me even because your cyclical self-deprecating behavior distracts my daily m.o: improve the world first, make a million dollars second. You’re interrupting history, playboy. Despite my benevolence, you’re not welcome on my to-do list. I could be paying an intern or that witch Sallie Mae instead of dropping a thousand on bail or $40 per week on your books.

I also don’t appreciate you giving your street affiliates my cell number. It’s challenging enough to remain a legit black man. I need another street homie like my arteries need a fried Twinkie. By the way I may hate your baby mamma. She’s either begging for shit or bitchin’ that you ain’t shit. I literally don’t have time for this.

My main issue is that it’s all unnecessary. I know your father was a terrible dad but it wasn’t like your mother wasn’t present. Yes, she could’ve done better but now I need you to. If you were stupid I’d accept this. But I know your mind. You’re far from dumb. Even when we both were teens doing dumb shit it was done pretty smart. Dirty urine to your parole officer, though, is dumb. Getting locked on the same charge you beat last year is dumb. Rotting in a penitentiary for a couple years then coming out without a committed plan or coppin’ work in the same area you have open cases is incest retarded.

I’m sure suburbia has a cloud of judgment hung over me right now (whatever). I wrestle with whether I’m enabling or riding true; whether I’m stupidly nursing their stupidity. But I know where my actions are rooted: majority love, minority guilt. See I don’t visit people in prison as a rule, so I overcompensate for my absence. Contributing to my guilt is the fact that many of my friends and fam look to me as a success (Ask me and I’ll tell you I haven’t done anything or just begun––depends on the day). Thus like the absence compensation I’ve birthed obligatory responsibility to loved ones who weren’t as fortunate to know what they wanted early in life. So whether guidance, an ear, a good time, cash, I give it if I have.

Albeit, though I stand for loyalty I march strong for progression. You can’t move forward in a cage, fam. You can’t progress on a hamster wheel, friend. Not only are y’all moving nowhere rapidly, the round and round is slowing me down. Ain’t nothing about this 360 that’s merry. So this is the last stop. I’ll have those sweat suits for you next week. 


Bonsu Thompson has accomplished more in his career than most journalists dream of. The Rolling Stone 2001 “Hot Interviewer” has penned for mags like Details, XXL, Penthouse, SLAM and KING as well as notable brands such as MTV, VH1, Rocawear and Translation.

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In an interview with Elle, Nancy Dubuc shared her plans to rebuild the outlet since reports of sexual harassment allegations, unlawful HR practices and the stepping down of Shane Smith came to light this year. Changing the bro culture has removed content and replacing it with more substantial content and finding gems that will also replace the gap left by Desus & Mero.

The guys brought high ratings to the network during their reign from August 2016 to June 2018, but Dubuc doesn't see this happening for their upcoming series at Showtime. “They’re going to a platform that their audience doesn’t pay for,” she said.  “I told them, ‘You can always come back.’”

In an interview with Bossip over the summer, the guys revealed their contracts were cut two months early after news about their deal with Showtime went public. They show consisted of the two commentating on the latest in politics and pop culture while interviewing big names like Gabrielle Union, Rachel Maddow, Diddy, Vic Mensa and Tracee Ellis Ross. They also opened up about their organic approach in comedy was nearly butchered when the network demanded them to work 24/7.

“We were carrying that network on our back, and we felt the weight,” Desus said. “They were talking about, ‘Do not take the weeks off because we don’t get ratings,’ and it’s like, 'Yo, we’re just two people.'”

“We were literally the LeBron of that network,” Mero added. “As a dad, you wanna be around for milestones for like graduations, birthdays…and it’s obnoxious to have to be like, ‘I can’t go to my kid’s graduation because we leave the studio at 3 o’clock and the graduation is at 4.’”

Mero believed the duo were undervalued and not appreciated by the network until it was too late. Their brand transcended platforms as the guys are still active on Twitter and their podcast roots, taking the brand to new heights.

“The channel wanted us to die for this f**king network,” Desus said at the time.  “We’re also the highest rated show on the network, put some respect on our name, have someone come massage my feet.”

We doubt the duo will go back to Vice as excitement for their series on Showtime continues to grow. The guys are already making strides by adding black women to their writing team and recently dropped a teaser for the show.

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Meek Mill To Man Who Vandalized Grandmother's Home: 'Just Don’t Let Us Catch You'

An unidentified man spray-painted a racial slur on Meek Mill's grandmother's Philadelphia home, and the rapper is sending a warning to the vandal who did the deed.

The Championships MC wrote on Twitter that a white man painted "racial remarks" on the South Philly home. Surveillance footage shows that the word "ACORN" was written, which is a term reportedly associated with white supremacists.

"A white man sprayed a racial remarks on my Grandmom’s house last night in south philly referencing white Privileged [sic]," the "Going Bad" rapper wrote on Twitter on Tuesday (Dec. 18).  "The crazy part is this was a all black neighborhood 20 years ago It was gentrified and now this! Just don’t let us catch you coward!"

Meek also revealed that his family just purchased the house, and the area's gentrification has given way to home remodeling.

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“Don Joaquín knows I (didn’t) like to f**k around with ephedrine,” Cifuentes said in the courtroom.

It wasn't until after a plane that carried Colombian-imported cocaine crashed on it's trip to Mexican that Cifuentes' siblings came clean and admitted they took a deal with Chapo as it the ephedrine was also in the cargo of the aircraft.

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