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Shawnna Comes Clean: Not Talking To Luda, T-Pain, And The Secret She Kept From Everyone

How did you avoid that conversation?
I came back home and cut everything off. I just wanted to be with my family... that's how I dealt with it. I think he and I were both kinda too hurt to even pick up the phone and call each other. We ain't even know what to say. So, I kinda just let everything play it self out.  

Do you regret not speaking to him one-on-one?
I do. But I know a time will come when we can talk. Everything happens for a reason, so it wasn't time yet. I definitely don't want it to be ugly.

Were you embarrassed to approach him even after months passed?
I was. It was very embarrassing.

To be clear, your decision to leave The Battle Of The Sexes project was 100% on you?
Yeah, I walked on the project. That's another reason Luda was really, really hurt. But I was dealing with a demon. It was really driving me low into the ground. I was stressed out. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think. I said I can't do it. 

So did you just have your phone off 24 hours a day?
It was kinda like that, I just disappeared. And honestly to really tell you the truth... I had another baby. I found out I was pregnant, and then I was like, 'I can't get on stage with this big belly and rock out and do videos and stuff.' I don't like the industry and media being a part of my personal life, but people really need to make it add up. Between me not feeling 100% sure of the success of it and then finding out I was have a baby... yeah. I don't even think Luda knows [about my baby.] But he knows now.

Wow, how old is your baby now?
She'll be seven months on the 17th. And I'm not the type to show off my baby and be like look at me now. My own dad didn't know about my baby until after she was born. Finding out I was pregnant, the stress of that project... it was all just a lot for me. I didn't tell nobody. I just had to get away.

How did T-Pain come into play?
We had always been really cool. So he was there for me when the shit started to hit the fan and everybody started going crazy on me. Like, all of the worst things that coulda been said were said and I wasn't used to that. So, he was my back up. He was like, 'You know I'm down for you. If you really wanna do this, we can do this.' He's another artist who really believes in my talent. Creatively, Nappy Boy really lets you go your own route. His thing is, if you believe in it, put it out.  

That's dope. You mentioned working on a mixtape with Twista. Are you in album mode at all yet? 
It's definitely coming. I just know now in these days you gotta build your hype online and put out a lot of mixtapes. So I'm putting my concentration there for now. 

True. How do you feel Nicki Minaj has been holding down the femcee fort?
You know what, I don't know why she gets so much hate because at first it was like 'Where are the female rappers?' Then all of a sudden Nicki came giving us bars, delivery, animation and it's like people want to hate that. I don't hate that. She came and took over and every feature they gave her, she held her weight, and I appreciate that. As far as me being a female artist, I appreciate that because, for a minute, they wasn't giving us a chance. All they wanted us to be on was these strip club records or a feature on your sexy song and that's it. Now, it's like we are a force to be reckoned with. We spittin! 

What would you say has been the hardest and most rewarding part of your experience as a female rapper?
This is what sets me apart from other female artists... It's nothing to do with my lyricism, it's nothing to do with my look, it's the fact that I'm a mother. I have kids so have to be mom, and the hardest thing is to miss first teeth growing in and missed first steps and missed Christmas recitals, but the most rewarding thing is you can move them to the best neighborhoods and put them in the best schools and give them everything they deserve. So all I ask from God now is guidance to be the best mother I can be, but to also be embraced in this game again.

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In her first interview since appearing on Red Table Talk, Jordyn Woods shed light into the bullying that she endured in the aftermath of the Tristan Thompson cheating scandal that may have ended her relationship with the Kardashian-Jenner crew.

As previously reported, Woods was busted kissing Thompson, Khloe Kardashian’s ex-boyfriend, during a party at his house. After her Red Table Talk interview, Khloe attempted to blame Woods for ruining her family, but after receiving backlash, the reality star changed her tune.

During an appearance at Nigeria’s Homecoming Festival last weekend, Woods spoke about how the public backlash gave her an understanding of what it feels like to be a black woman.

“My little sister was bullied in school and I wanted to show her that if I was bullied by the world you can [get through it],” she said in a video from a panel discussion that was published by the Daily Mail. “I understood for the first time what it’s like being a black woman in  society, and how we can be so disrespected and nobody can really understand to that extent until you have to live it.”

The appearance in Nigeria marked Woods’ first trip to the Motherland. Despite being bullied online, Woods has seemingly bounced back stronger than before the Kardashian drama. After her initial interview with Jada Pinkett-Smith, Woods was flooded with support and has reportedly been scoring various business opportunities in light of the incident.

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Diddy Opens Up About Kim Porter In Emotional Interview

Diddy is opening up about the day his “life turned upside down.” In the May 2019 issue of Essence magazine, the 49-year-old mogul speaks about hopping into “mommy mode” after the shocking death of model/actress Kim Porter, who was his ex-girlfriend and the mother of four of his children.

“She was unforgettable,” Diddy told writer and producer Dream Hampton. “That day turned my world upside down. Three days before she passed, she wasn’t feeling well. She had the flu, and she sent the kids over to my house so they wouldn’t get sick. One night I was checking on her, and she was like, ‘Puffy, take care of my babies.’ She actually said that to me before she died.”

Diddy graces the magazine’s special 49th anniversary cover alongside his and Porter’s 12-year-old twin daughters, D’Lila and Jessie, as well their 21-year-old son, Christian, and 27-year-old Quincy Brown, Porter’s son with Al B. Sure. The Bad Boy Records founder's tween daughter Chance, who was born weeks before the twins, also appears on the cover along with Justin Combs, Diddy’s 25-year-old son with Misa Hylton.

In the six months since Porter's death, the “unconventional” blended family has been working through the massive loss of their beloved matriarch. Porter, 46, died last November following a bout with lobar pneumonia.

Although Diddy believes that Porter was his “soulmate” the pair endured ups and downs that they were eventually able to “heal” from, he explained.

“The betrayal really affected Kim,” Diddy said in reference to his infidelity, before admitting that he feared that he may lose his “best friend,” at one point in their relationship.

Building “trust” mended the emotional wounds. “There was total trust,” he said. “Whenever I was around her, I felt as though God had his hand in it. I always felt like God had sent her. Nobody could love me the way she loved me, especially as, you know, as crazy as I acted. I mean, she loved me through some real s**t.”

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DJ Paul Sues Travis Scott For Copyright Infringement

DJ Paul has filed a multi-million dollar copyright infringement lawsuit against Travis Scott for allegedly stealing his music.

According to TMZ, the Three 6 Mafia member accuses Scott of snatching a portion of the hook from his 1997 track “Tear Da Club Up,” for “No Bystanders” off the 27-year-old rapper’s Astroworld album.

Paul claims that the hooks to both songs are “virtually identical and strikingly similar,” reports The Blast. The lawsuit also notes that the songs sound so much alike that Scott changed his lyrics from to “f**k da club up,” “tear the club up” during his Grammys performance in February, without Paul's permission.

The Memphis native is asking for at least $20 million in damages. However, TMZ reported that Scott reached out to Paul sometime Tuesday (April 23) to potentially work out the legal matter.

The “Sicko Mode” rapper has faced multiple lawsuits over the last two years, including being sued for canceling a music festival performance. Last week, Scott lost a nearly $400,000 lawsuit after being sued for pulling out of a party during Super Bowl weekend. In 2017, La Flame was hit with a lawsuit brought on by a fan who was paralyzed after sustaining injuries during one of his concerts.

 

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