V Exclusive: Karrine Steffans Searches For Answers And Claims Not To Know Prodigy [Pg. 2]

Do you feel as though searching for inspiration is better than it coming to you?
I’ve been here 11 years. I haven’t been home in a while. Whenever I talk to my grandmother, I just break into tears. I miss her. I want to be in the house where I was brought home from the hospital. I want to be in the house where I was raised. We got chickens in the backyard, a mango tree and banana trees. I want to climb trees. Climb the coconut tree with the machete and cut it down I want to go the beach Coki Beach and Megans Bay. I have an ill family history there. My family is a historic family on that island; we are in the museums down there. I want to go do that. My grandfather started his autobiography before he died; he never finished it. I would like to finish his autobiography because I finished mine. There are a lot of loose ends that have to be tied, and I want to go do that. I think that somewhere in there, I’m gonna find myself. What is this really all for? I’m the only person in my family that has made it this far. I do feel to answer your questions that sometimes you have to go not looking for i,t but just go back to square one. Just go back to where it all started, your islands, your projects or grandma’s house.

I know you’ve heard about everyone and their books that are coming out: its like all these different tell all’s and all that.
No, honey. I’ve only heard about myself.

Guess who has new tell-all book? Prodigy from Mobb Deep.
I don’t know Prodigy, [but] I’ve heard of Mobb Deep…[singing "Get Away"]

People in that circle that understand all those underground people that he is mentioning there are a lot of instances where they are starting to get upset that he released this information. Some people call it snitching, but he’s like how is it snitching if it happened to me, and it’s my truth. Where is the line drawn?
You people with your lingo. That is the most urban shit I’ve heard in my life. When Goldie Hawn wrote her memoirs, no one said Goldie Hawn was snitching. When Jane Fonda wrote her memoirs, no one said Jane Fonda was snitching. That is part of the black experience. Where do you people come up with this shit?

It’s an issue in that community.
This is a community of secrets and lies; a community of don’t ask, don’t tell. I mean that didn’t start with the gays; that started with blacks. That’s the types of families we all came from. I remember specifically my mother telling me growing up don’t put my business in the street. I was like seven, and I am like what does that mean. I feel like the truth is the truth, and the broader and the bigger the truth the better because then other people get to know they’re not alone, that they are not the only people to have these feelings. I feel that it is important that people aren’t afraid to share their stories; this is why people get upset when you share your stories because it reminds them of themselves and their secrets. It’s a lot of people’s truths. And people don’t want to hear that. It makes other people very uncomfortable. I kind of like when people say, “Hey how are you?” You always say, “I’m fine.” And why do you do that? I don’t do that anymore. I haven’t done that since ’04. I say, “I’m not doing well. Today’s a shitty day. Fuck off.” Whatever I feel, whatever is going on, that’s what I’m going to say because I want you to know what I’m doing. But, I feel like people say “I’m fine”, because it allows the other person to keep moving. But if you say, “I’m having a bad day, my husband is beating me and my kids don’t listen to me.” What is that other person supposed to say? You have to respond. You have to do something about it. People don’t want to get involved. So everyone always says “I’m fine.” When you start writing about your life, and it’s not all peaches and cream because nobody’s life is, other people become uncomfortable because now you have to respond to that. And I think that it’s sad that in this particular community, we’ve been brought up to don’t ask don’t tell. That’s why a lot of us are so hurt and so angry because there aren’t any outlets. But good for him, whoever he is. Good for him.

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Nicki Minaj Cancels Tour Stop Due To Technical Difficulties

Nicki Minaj is feeling “gutted” and “heartbroken” after she was forced to cancel a tour stop in show in Bratislava, Slovakia Friday (Feb. 22) due to technical difficulties, the “Barbie Dreams” rapper said on Instagram.

“I can’t believe my fans sometimes,” Minaj captioned a cascade of videos of her on stage breaking the bad news to fans. “After waiting for hours & hours, they still tried to be understanding.”

The venue didn’t have the electrical capabilities to support a major “technical aspect” of the show and lost power several times in the process, TMZ reports.

“Production was told the building does not have the power to facilitate my lifts,” Minaj explained. “They’d get the show powered up then the breaker would basically trip after a few mins.”

XL Promotion, the company promoting the show in Slovakia, shared a different story on Facebook. “The Winter Stadium of Andrew Nepelu meets all the technical standards and the agency XL Promotion respected all the conditions sent by the production of Nicki Minaj,” reads the post.

The company blamed Minaj for deciding to cancel, and added that they have done a number of “large world productions” for musical acts including Depeche Mode, Lenny Kravitz, One Republic and “many others.” XL Promotion vowed to refund all ticket holders.

Some of Minaj’s loyal Barbz waited up to seven hours before being told that the show was cancelled, according to comments on her Instagram post and tweets from fans.

Minaj said that she felt “horrible” about the whole thing. The Young Money rhymer also promised to “figure out a way,” to come back and make up for the missed performance, which was the second stop on the European leg of her Nicki WRLD Tour featuring Juice WRLD. The jaunt kicked off in Germany Thursday and rolls into Poland on Feb. 24.

Read Minaj's full Instagram post below.


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Gutted. Heart broken. I can’t believe my fans sometimes. After waiting for hours & hours, they still tried to be understanding. Production was told the building does not have the power to facilitate my lifts (which don’t only move me below & very VERY high above the stage, but also move all our props, furniture, dancers, band, etc.), our lighting rig, fog, cryo, confetti, movies/visuals. They’d get the show powered up then the breaker would basically trip after a few mins. Juice WRLD & I waited while they did this over & over for 3 hours. Some of my fans came from Austria, Nigeria, etc. I met w/a lot of them & they had the best, sweetest energy. I’m so disappointed. Slovakia, I love you so much & I’ll do everything in my power to get back to you as soon as I can. I think the venue/promo team probably didn’t expect a rap show to have such over the top production. We run the risk of someone getting hurt if we start the show & smthng malfunctions mid-show. Sorry we couldn’t have a great night together. We’ll be in Poland on Sunday @ a building that can facilitate our show. ♥️🙏🏽

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R. Kelly Turns Himself In To Chicago Police On Sexual Abuse Charges

R. Kelly turned himself in to authorities in Chicago Friday (Feb. 22), hours after being charged with 10 counts of aggravated criminal sexual abuse. Kelly, 52, was met by a flood of cameras when he arrived at the precinct. Officers quickly led him away in handcuffs.

The Grammy winner, whose birth name is Robert Kelly, is expected to remain in custody overnight before appearing in court Saturday for a bond hearing, reports the Chicago Tribute.

Earlier in the day, Cook County State Attorney’s Kim Foxx announced charges against the singer who is accused abusing four victims, three of whom are between the ages of 13 and 17, according to a grand jury indictment. Cook County Judge Dennis Porter authorized an arrest warrant for Kelly with no bail amount.

Kelly has claimed innocence for years, amid numerous allegations dating back more than a decade.

Steve Greenberg, Kelly's lawyer, maintained Friday that his client is an "innocent man," and that all of his accusers are "lying."  Greenberg tweeted earlier in the day, that Kelly would be surrendering between 11 p.m. and midnight, at the Area South location.

If convicted on all charges, Kelly faces up to 70 years in prison. See video of his surrender below.

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DESUS & MERO Bring the Brand to Showtime in Their Series Premiere

"Bodega Boys in the building!" That's how Desus Nice and The Kid Mero started the first episode of their new half hour show on Showtime. The "Bodega Boys," as Desus and Mero like to be called, took their comedic talents from Viceland and secured a slot for their talk show on the network. After airing on Thursday night, they posted the full episode on YouTube to give fans and a new live studio audience a look at what they have to offer.

The first episode of their new series did not disappoint. The two comedians represented their roots in the Bronx to the fullest by incorporating the class bodega backdrop as well as inviting none other than Bronx native, and United States Representative for New York,  Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, as their first guest. The TV personalities greeted the politician with their now famous "yerrr" and managed to keep things light by bonding over the memes they receive from Twitter users while also managing to keep things serious as they talked about AOC's come up.

In the debut of the show, Ocasio-Cortez made the trip back to the Bronx to chat with the former Guy Code cast members, but the "Bodega Boys" also made a trip down to the nation's capital, Washington, D.C. During the trip to D.C. Desus and Mero presented the member of the Democratic Party with a flag of Puerto Rico, representing her roots, and they also were able to meet representatives Ilhan Omar and Rashan Tlaib of Minnesota and Michigan, respectively.

"Am I a gentrifier?" Ocasio-Cortez asked. "No! How are you a gentrifier? You moved from the Bronx to D.C.!" Mero responded.

Ocasio-Cortez's presence on the show wasn't the only highlight of the first episode. Desus and Mero have added a new element to their talk show, which are skits. The skit the two debuted on their talk show poked fun at the controversial Oscar-nominated film, Green Book. Before presenting the skit, Desus described the film as being, "basically just Friday with racism."

The skit features Mero playing the role of the white driver, Tony Lip, while Desus plays the role of the Black pianist. Throughout the entirety of the skit, Desus and Mero show how they feel "Green Book" was made to make white people feel as if they weren't racist in a time where racism was quite obviously prevalent.

"Wait, there's another one of these movies? What is wrong with you people? Please leave us alone. It's not our job to make white people feel better about race stuff," was a fake quote about the movie included in the skit.

Catch DESUS & MERO on Showtime every Thursday night at 11! You won't want to miss out.


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