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Nicole Scherzinger Talks Struggle to Become a Solo Artist and Battle With Bulimia on 'Behind the Music'

has been turning heads since 2004 as lead singer of the burlesque troupe-turned-pop girl group The Pussycat Dolls. While many know the Polynesian bombshell for being a sexy lead singer, VH1's Behind The Music was the first time Nicole revealed the many demons she dealt with behind the scenes. "I've never spoke about it. It's embarrassing. I never wanna play a victim," she says. "Do you know how hard it is to not like yourself?"

Born and raised in Hawaii, Scherzinger's goal was simply to sing after recieving a boombox one year for Christmas. "It wasn't about the money or the fame. I wanted to be Whitney friggin' Houston." From that moment on, everything Nicole did was music-related. Whether it was participating in school musicals, singing background or being part of a band, having a successful solo career was the destination.

Scherzinger got her first taste of superstardom after auditioning and successfully becoming part of Eden's Crush, a girl group manafactured via the reality show Popstars. As one of the lead soloists on the groups only hit "Get Over Yourself," it was clear that no matter the outcome, Nicole's place in the industry was cemented.

After happily disbanding from the group, Nicole continued to work towards her goal and eventually met a man who would become her fiancée and manager. Although it seemed like a recipe for success, the relationship's downfall was his controlling ways and ego that stood in the way of many opportunities, including a chance to be a part of The Black Eyed Peas (pre-Fergie).

Nicole ScherzingerIt seemed like Nicole's journey was over until she saw an audition notice for The Pussycat Dolls. Although Nicole was hesitant and extremely nervous, she made it just as auditions were closing and wowed everyone with her raw talent, despite her nerdy girl style. "At the time I wore glasses, a full button-up blouse, and I just bought these new pinstripe pants from Forever 21. I just looked like...a nerd."

Because Nicole's fellow group members were primarily dancers (except Melody Thornton), it was her that recorded over 95% of the Dolls' vocals and established herself as the face and voice of the group: "I  love those girls. Those are my sisters. But people don't know the whole story. I was in center because I was singing. I was the one singing. I'll never forget, I finished the album PCD and Ron and I brought the girls into the studio and played it for them. And it was the first time they'd ever heard the music. Do you understand what I'm saying?  We played the album for the Pussycat Dolls.'

The beginning of the Dolls also marked the beginning of Nicole's nine year battle with bulimia, a disease that stemmed from her insecurities about her looks at a younger age. While society would label a girl like Nicole as gorgeous, she still felt inadequate inside, especially as the lead singer of a group who's popularity was partly due to their sexy look. "For our first photo shoot, I got  my outfit and my outfit was a bra, some underwear, some garters, I was sweatin in the back room and I was like I don't wanna go out, I can't do this," she says." "It was all new to me and I was incredibly scared. I was not comfortable with my body. I never did drugs but hurting myself was my addiction," she revealed.

In combination with the other girls' resentment for being in the background and Nicole's personal demons, the group officially disbanded in 2011 after two successful albums. The end of the group and the beginning of a solo career also marked the end of Nicole's battle with bulimia. "Music is my therapy, prescription music is what I call it. The music is the thing that saved me. It's the only thing I can rely on. It's the only thing I can trust."

Let's hope that 2013 brings Nicole the solo success she's always dreamed of. --Nicole Brown

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Insert Vogue, who decided to give props to Kim Kardashian for bringing back crimped hair on Friday (March 15). The businesswoman has been on the move lately, rocking a mix of kanekalon and yaki ponytails during fashion month, Chance The Rapper's wedding and other Kardashian-related events.

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The texture? 

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But we can't forget those who have slayed kanekalon, yaki and crimped styles like...

Janet Jackson

The singer's look for her comeback has been a uniform-like one, with Ms. Jackson rocking all black and her now signature ponytail.

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This. was. last. year. How could anyone forget this? The entertainer rocked various styles of kanekalon hair for Beychella.

There was also this amazing look at Serena Williams' wedding.

 

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Ruth E. Carter

The Oscar-winning designer made the look all her own while on the red carpet for Black Panther. 

Nicki Minaj

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And we cannot forget about our queen, Naomi Campbell

She's owned the look her whole career, from the runway to the red carpet, Ms. Campbell has always been on the forefront of casual beautiful looks.

Social media also got wind of Vogue's post, including actor O'Shea Jackson who like many of us, is just over it.

Maaaaaaan come on now. Come ooooon now. Bringing it back? Vogue stop this https://t.co/FEGSw3GM9V

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Shadow & Act reported Wednesday (March 12), the untitled series will also star singer-actor Leslie Odom Jr. of Hamilton fame and is based on real-life married progressive pastors Touré Roberts and Sarah Jakes-Roberts. penned by Saladin K. Patterson (The Last O.G., The Big Bang Theory), the comedy  "revolves around Omari and Hope, who are joint pastors at a young, hip, diverse church in Los Angeles. Through their services, online streams and books, they are experts at uniting people across different races, genders, orientations and opinions. But when it comes to uniting the people in their blended family, they are way out of their comfort zone, and as a result, the teachers often find themselves the pupils."

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— Alexis Fields (@Alexis_Fields) March 12, 2019

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