Nicole Scherzinger Talks Struggle to Become a Solo Artist and Battle With Bulimia on ‘Behind the Music’


has been turning heads since 2004 as lead singer of the burlesque troupe-turned-pop girl group The Pussycat Dolls. While many know the Polynesian bombshell for being a sexy lead singer, VH1’s Behind The Music was the first time Nicole revealed the many demons she dealt with behind the scenes. “I’ve never spoke about it. It’s embarrassing. I never wanna play a victim,” she says. “Do you know how hard it is to not like yourself?”

Born and raised in Hawaii, Scherzinger’s goal was simply to sing after recieving a boombox one year for Christmas. “It wasn’t about the money or the fame. I wanted to be Whitney friggin’ Houston.” From that moment on, everything Nicole did was music-related. Whether it was participating in school musicals, singing background or being part of a band, having a successful solo career was the destination.

Scherzinger got her first taste of superstardom after auditioning and successfully becoming part of Eden’s Crush, a girl group manafactured via the reality show Popstars. As one of the lead soloists on the groups only hit “Get Over Yourself,” it was clear that no matter the outcome, Nicole’s place in the industry was cemented.

After happily disbanding from the group, Nicole continued to work towards her goal and eventually met a man who would become her fiancée and manager. Although it seemed like a recipe for success, the relationship’s downfall was his controlling ways and ego that stood in the way of many opportunities, including a chance to be a part of The Black Eyed Peas (pre-Fergie).