Wait, What? 15 Quotes From Darren Wilson’s 18-Page Testimony You Need To Read

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Following last night’s grand jury decision to not indict Ferguson police officer Darren Wilson in the killing of 18-year-old Mike Brown, the official documents from the proceedings were released. Totaling 78 pieces of information – from toxicology reports, to autopsy reports to witness statements – the evidence also includes a lengthy account from Wilson on what took place on Aug. 9. Describing an alleged assault from Brown and his reasoning for firing 12 shots thereafter, Wilson’s testimony included more than a few eyebrow-raising quotes.

If you haven’t gotten around to combing through his full 18-page interview, here are 15 of them you need to see.

“I was hit right here in the side of the face with a fist. I don’t think it was a full-on swing, I think it was a full-on swing, but not a full shot. I think my arm deflected some of it, but there was still a significant amount of contact that was made to my face.”

“And when I grabbed him, the only way I can describe it is I felt like a five-year-old holding onto Hulk Hogan […] Hulk Hogan, that’s just how he felt and how small I felt just from grasping his arm”

“I considered using my mace, however, I wasn’t willing to sacrifice my left hand, which is blocking my face, to go for it.”

“I felt that another one of those punches in my face could knock me out or worse. I mean it was, he’s obviously bigger than I was and stronger and the, I’ve already taken two to the face and I didn’t think I would, the third one could be fatal if he hit me right.”

“The gun goes down into my hip and at that point I thought I was getting shot. I can feel his fingers try to get inside the trigger guard with my finger and I remember envisioning a bullet going into my leg. I thought that was the next step.”

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“He kind of stepped back and went like up at me and had the most intense aggressive face. The only way I can describe it, it looks like a demon, that’s how angry he looked.”

“I shoot a series of shots. I don’t know how many I shot, I just know I shot it. I know I missed a couple, I don’t know how many, but I know I hit him at least once because I saw his body kind of jerk or flenched.”

“I shoot another round of shots. Again, I don’t recall how many [hit] him every time. I know at least once because he flinched again. At this point it looked like he was almost bulking up to run through the shots, like it was making him mad that I’m shooting at him. And the face that he had was looking straight through me, like I wasn’t even there, I wasn’t even anything in his way.”

“[Brown was] coming straight at me like he was going to run right through me. And when he gets about that 8 to 10 feet away, I look down, I remember looking at my sites and firing, all I see is his head and that’s what I shot. I don’t know how many, I know at least once because I saw the last one go into him. And then when it went into him, the demeanor on his face went blank, the aggression was gone, it was gone, I mean, I knew he stopped, the threat was stopped.”

“[A fellow officer] said, ‘Did you call for an ambulance?’ I said ‘I haven’t, will you.’”

“Once he was hitting me in the face, that enough, was in my mind to authorize the use of force […] My gun was already being presented as a deadly force option while he was hitting me in the face.”

“There’s a lot of gangs that reside or associate with that area. There’s a lot of violence in that area, there’s a lot of gun activity, drug activity, it is just not a very well-liked community. That community doesn’t like the police.”

“Just from everything we have always been taught about blood, you don’t want it on you, you don’t touch it, you don’t come in contact with it. And my original thought was that it was the glass had cut my wrist and cut my hand, which is why this hand was bleeding. And so thinking that I was cut with someone else’s blood on me, I had to wash my hands.”

“I’ve never used my weapon before.”

“We’re trained not to run away from a threat, to deal with a threat and that is what I was doing. That never entered my mind to flee.”