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A 38-Year-Old Former NFL Player Says He’s Experiencing Symptoms Of CTE

Larry Johnson details a bout with depression, suicidal thoughts, and his fading memory.

Former NFL player Larry Johnson could be suffering from symptoms brought on by chronic traumatic encephalopathy  (CTE), the degenerative brain disease that can only be diagnosed after death. In a Washington Post feature published Tuesday (Dec. 12), Johnson details his struggle with depression, mood swings and suicidal thoughts, and reveals how his daughter has helped him combat some of his inner demons.

Memory loss, confusion, impaired judgment, aggression, impulse control problems, depression, and anxiety, are some of the symptoms of CTE, and  Johnson -- who says that he can’t remember the last two seasons of his career --fears that he won’t know his own name by age 50.

For the last several years, the 38-year-old former pro athlete has been recording videos for his 7-year-old daughter to watch when she gets older.

“If I can’t remember who I was, I’ve got YouTube; I’ve got music videos that I’m making for myself, so when I watch these things I can remember,” he told the paper. “I’m trying to get these things in order so she knows who I am and what I came from.”

Johnson's urge to chronicle his life became stronger following the suicide of Aaron Hernandez. In April, the former New England Patriots player hanged himself in his prison cell last days after being acquitted of double murder. Hernandez, was found to have an extremely severe case of CTE.

Johnson, a native of Maryland began playing football as a child. He was drafted to the Kansas City Chiefs in 2003, and played for the Washington Redskins and Miami Dolphins, who released him in 2011.

Over the last decade, Johnson has been arrested at least half a dozen-times, mostly for assaulting women. And he plans to be honest with his daughter about his past.

In the story, Johnson speaks to his bouts of rage, offering up an explanation but not necessarily an excuse, for a history of violent behavior and physical abuse. “Those two combinations, of being angry and not being able to shut that switch off, started to disrupt who I really was,” he says. “And it was just waiting to eat me up.”

At the height of his career, Johnson became the highest paid running back in the NFL securing a $45 million contract with the Chiefs that guaranteed him at least $19 million. His circle of friends included Jay Z, and he used to date Mya.

But as the arrest records grew, people began to distance themselves from Johnson. According to the article, Jay Z ended their friendship (via email) because Johnson continued to get arrested, and Mya once saved him from “jumping from a window.”

Today, Johnson, who works at a non-profit organization aimed at mentoring disadvantaged children through art, has enough leftover from his multi-million contract to send his daughter to college,  and to support himself.

He left Miami for a quieter life in nearby Ft. Lauderdale and cut back on drinking and partying. He also quit therapy and refuses to take prescription pills because he feels equipped at managing his mental strife without medication.

“You kind of create your own prison,” he said of being a recluse. “I’ve kind of barricaded myself in my surroundings [with] certain things that I can handle. That’s kind of how I beat it.”

Johnson’s daughter however provides a “good distraction” from his personal battle. “She sees something in me that most people will never see.”

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Deontay Wilder Makes Sinister Remarks Ahead Of Bout With Dominic Breazeale

Drenched in sweat and surrounded by reporters and cameras, Deontay Wilder made sinister remarks Tuesday (May 14) ahead of his bout with Dominic Breazeale, which centered the WBC heavyweight champion in steep controversy.

"[Breazeale's] life is on the line for this fight and I do mean his life,” Wilder said. “I am still trying to get me a body on my record."

Last December, Wilder earned the title in a controversial draw against Tyson Fury, but prior to their bout in the ring, Wilder, 33, said he wants "a wants a body on his record," which resulted in backlash as the sport has already had several injuries and deaths in and outside of the ring.

Ahead of Saturday's matchup with Breazeale, Wilder doubled down on his desire and asserted boxing is a sport which makes it legal.

"Dominic Breazeale asked for this. I didn't go seek him. He [sought] me. So if it comes it comes. This is a brutal sport. This is not a gentleman sport," Wilder said. "We don't ask to hit each other in the face but we do anyway, and you can ask any doctor around the world, he will tell you, your head is not meant to be hit."

"On this particular time, we have bad blood against each other. This is the only sport where you can kill a man and get paid for it at the same time. It's legal. So why not use my right to do so?"

Wednesday afternoon (May 15) Wilder began to trend on social media with many demonstrating a plethora of emotions

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I've been inspired and touched by Deontay Wilder's story about how He got into boxing to help pay for His daughter's medical bills and He genuinely might be a really nice guy, but it's so fucking hard to see when he's spouting shite like this. Get fucked pic.twitter.com/hgF4G8D2l1

— Jay Brown (@JayJagsBrown) May 15, 2019

Deontay Wilder on ESPN talking about killing his opponent this weekend in the ring pic.twitter.com/ilNTSNScWT

— James Ryne Goldberg (@james_ryne) May 15, 2019

Deontay Wilder and Dominic Breazeale go at it Saturday, (May 18) Let's hope both men leave the arena in one piece.

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Lamar Odom Suffering From Severe Memory Loss After Near-Fatal Overdose

Lamar Odom is a “walking miracle.” In an interview with the Los Angeles Times, the 39-year-old former NBA player turned team captain for Ice Cube’s Big 3 basketball league, reflected on the near death experience that left him with permanent memory loss.

“My memory is really bad,” Odom admitted to the newspaper. “I can’t remember anything. My short-term memory is really bad. … I wish I could explain it but I can’t. It’s tough and it’s really frustrating. If there’s a poster child for Alzheimer’s, I’m probably it. It’s something I’m scared of. I think I need to go see a doctor at some point and see if I can work on that. It’s scary.”

Odom returned was in Vegas Wednesday (May 1) for the Big 3 draft, but Sin City has a whole new meaning to the native New Yorker. In October 2015, Odom almost died from a drug overdose after being found unconscious in a Las Vegas brothel. Odom suffered 12 strokes, and half a dozen heart attacks while he was comatose.

“I always knew I had a strong will. I think my will is even stronger than I believed it was. It’s a testament that God is good,” he said. “When I woke up [from the coma] and I couldn’t talk or walk I never thought I would be here. I never thought I would play basketball again or talk to you. Just to be here is a win for me.”

Despite the miraculous recovery Odom revealed that he suffered from physical setbacks that have affected his game. “I can’t dribble the basketball the way I used to. That was a gift from God. It was just so natural for me. It was a mismatch for me with my size to be able to put the ball on the floor the way I did,” he said. “I guess God gave me life so he had to take something… I guess he took away some of my natural ability, which came easy to me. Ball handling and dribbling is still an issue but I have a month to work on that before the season starts.”

The Big 3 2019 regular season kicks off on June 22.

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NY Giants Draft Pick Injured, College Teammate Killed In Kansas Shooting

Corey Ballentine, a sixth-round draft pick to the New York Giants was reportedly injured in a shooting in Topeka, Kansas Sunday morning (April 28), People reports. His college teammate at Washburn University, Dwane Simmons, was unfortunately killed.

The shooting occurred hours after the Washburn University senior was selected in the NFL Draft on Saturday (April 27). The Topeka Police Department said their officers responded to a "disturbance with gunshots" at an off-campus location around midnight on Sunday. Upon arrival, they discovered Simmons dead. Ballentine was taken to a local hospital where he was treated for non-life threatening injuries.

Washburn University's president, Dr. Jerry Farley released a statement in mourning of the school's tremendous loss. "Any time we lose a student it is a sad occasion, but it is particularly poignant to lose a student through such a senseless act," he said. "Both Dwane and Corey have been great examples and representatives of the football team and of Washburn University in general. This was a terrible way to end a day which should have been a day of celebration and a day to look forward to Dwane’s upcoming year at Washburn and the beginning of Corey’s professional career."

The Giants also responded to the recent reports, stating, "we are aware of the tragic situation and continue to gather information. We have spoken to Corey, and he is recovering in the hospital. Our thoughts are with Dwane Simmons’ family, friends and teammates and the rest of the Washburn community."

Twenty-three-year-old Ballentine was the seventh pick of the sixth round, and the 180th overall. He was also the first player out of Washburn to be drafted since Cary Williams went to the Tennessee Titans in 2008. The defensive back expressed his excitement for the new chapter on Instagram prior to the shooting. "It’s all a crazy dream until you do it. I can’t even explain the emotions I have right now. Blessed with the opportunity to live out my dream," he wrote. "Shout out the people that told me to pick a more realistic career. This is as real as it gets. Thank you to the Giants organization for believing in me. It’s only up from here. #GiantsPride"

 

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It’s all a crazy dream until you do it. I can’t even explain the emotions I have right now. Blessed with the opportunity to live out my dream. Shout out the people that told me to pick a more realistic career. This is as real as it gets. Thank you to the Giants organization for believing in me. It’s only up from here. #GiantsPride

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