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Demi Lovato Shares Battle With Suicidal Thoughts

"I knew that if I were to take my own life that the pain would end."

In an interview with Dr. Phil, Demi Lovato revealed that she pondered suicide at only seven years-old. The shocking admission comes only a week after the singer reached the six-year mark of sobriety.

The 25-year-old, Mexican-American singer spoke confidently about having conquered her addiction and alcoholism, though she still struggles with an eating disorder. She called it “the last thing to go” on the list of things that she wants to get control of as it haunts her every day.

While dealing with that, Lovato still found it difficult to battle many other things. “I had this fascination with death,” she told Dr. Phil, when asked whether she’d considered taking her own life. “At 7, I knew that if I were to take my own life that the pain would end.” The singer said that the feeling was recurring, returning to the fore when she was bullied, struggling with depression and bipolar disorder.

“I turned to cutting and there was a while there where my mom was afraid to wake me up in the mornings because she didn’t know if she opened the door if I would be alive or not.” The singer recalled that her cuts would get deeper and deeper.

It was all intensified by a “suicide petition” that circulated by girls Lovato thought were friends when she was a kid. They wanted other people to sign off on Demi’s death.

Lovato drew a link between her disorders and unresolved issues with her birth father. Her father left her and her mother when she was just a kid. "He was abusive. He was mean. But he wanted to be a good person,” she said. As a kid, it was difficult for her to see that it wasn’t her father’s intent to abandon anyone; he was mentally ill. She didn’t get the closure she needed until her father’s passing. When turning to alcohol, she said that she had been looking for something to “numb” her and unfortunately, this was where she found her relief.

But that’s changed. Known for a ferocious comeback, Lovato has decided to use the platform she’s created to remove any stigmas surrounding the all-too-common struggles that she was made to endure alone. The singer recommended getting help and if that’s not an option, she had advice for those who feel alone. “If you feel like you don’t have anybody, look within yourself and try to find that resilience that will ultimately get you through whatever it is you’re going through. Every single person on this planet is worth life.”

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Cardi B Comments On Government Shutdown: "Our Country Is In A Hellhole"

Cardi B wanted to give her two cents on the now-25 day partial government shutdown. The Grammy-nominated rapper got political on her Instagram page, stating that she believes our country is in a "Hellhole" and she feels terribly for those affected.

"It’s been a little bit over three weeks. Trump is now ordering, as in summoning, federal government workers to go back to work without getting paid," she said. Cardi continued by telling people not to drag former President Barack Obama's partial government shutdown into the conversation, as his shutdown was for a better reason than Trump's dream border wall.

"Now, I don't want to hear any of y'all motherf**kas talkin' 'bout, 'Oh, but Obama shut down the government for 17 days,' Yeah, b***h! For healthcare!" she continued. "So your grandma could check her blood pressure and you b****es could go check y'all p***y at the gynecologist with no motherf**kin' problem. This sh*t is really f**kin' serious, bro. This sh*t is crazy. Like, our country is in a hellhole right now. All for a f**kin' wall."

The Invasion of Privacy MC continues by stating that she is "scared" and feels badly for those who aren't able to be compensated for their work.

"Now, I now a lot of y’all don’t care…  b***h I’m scared," she concludes. "This is crazy, and I really feel bad for these people that gotta go to f**kin' work without getting f**kin' paid."

Watch her comments below.

 

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I know a lot of ya do r watch the news so I’m letting ya know shit getting real .....I ain’t going to say nothing much tho I don’t want mofos to off me.....ANYWAYS TWERK VIDEO OUT NOW

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R. Kelly's Former Manager Will Reportedly Surrender To Georgia Police For Threats Towards Savage Family

James Mason, R. Kelly’s former manager who is being accused of sending terrorizing, threatening text messages to the father of one of Kelly’s accusers, is reportedly surrendering to Georgia authorities.

According to The Blast, Mason will surrender in Henry County, Ga. on Wednesday (Jan. 16) after a judge issued a warrant for his arrest, citing “terroristic threats and acts.” A police report obtained by the site states that Mason told Timothy Savage, the father of Kelly’s alleged cult member Jocelyn Savage, that he was going to “f**king kill” him when he saw him, and that he was going to harm him and his family.

A second manager for Kelly, Don Russell, is also reportedly under investigation for allegedly harassing and threatening the Savage family for participating in the six-part docu-series, Surviving R. Kelly. 

Mr. Savage was reportedly texted by Mr. Russell, who said it would “be best for him and his family if the documentary [Surviving R. Kelly] does not air." During a phone call that was put on speaker, Russell reportedly threatened to reveal information about Mr. Savage if he did not pull out of the doc.

Kelly is under investigation in both Georgia and Illinois, which is reportedly a direct response to the allegations made in the Lifetime docu-series.

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Porn Site Condemns Users After Searches For R. Kelly's Sex Tape Increase

Searches for the infamous sex tape recorded by R. Kelly and featuring a minor has seen an uptick, and a porn site is condemning its users from trying to find it, because child pornography is illegal.

According to The Blast, porn site xHamster reportedly said that searches for the term ‘R. Kelly’ are up 388 percent since the beginning of January. Of course, this coincides with the release of the six-part Lifetime docu-series, Surviving R. Kelly, which chronicles over 20 years of indecent and immoral behavior towards teenage girls and women.

The site noted that they do not have the infamous tape that involves the controversial musician having sex with and urinating on an underage girl, nor will they ever carry it and other videos like it on their site.

“The R. Kelly tape is not on xHamster, nor would we ever allow it to be,” representatives for the site told The Blast. “Regardless of the news or sensation, a tape featuring underaged is both illegal and immoral.” xHamster also says they will be “disabling searches and putting up messages alerting any searches that the content is not acceptable.”

One of the messages on the site says “Please consider that in searching for and viewing such content, you may be re-victimizing a minor who could not consent.”

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