During an episode of Dr. Oz at the end of 2013, Mary J. Blige came clean about her distorted self-image and how she’s coped with it in the past.
“I suffered from self hatred so much. It’s like I didn’t want to look like that any more. I didn’t to feel like that any more. It had to be another way,” Blige said on the show. She went on to explain that cocaine and alcohol were specific crutches that she used during hard times.
“I feel like once I turn it on, it’s on. That’s one of the reasons I stopped because once it’s on, it’s on,” said Blige. “I didn’t know how to show my self love and I didn’t want anyone else to hurt me. So my tough girl attitude was like, ‘I’m not having it.’ I didn’t know that I was hurting myself (doing that). I hated myself for so many reasons and I thought so many things were my fault, that happened to me growing up. So resort to drugs and alcohol to numb you from thinking about those things. It just makes it worse.”
Watch the whole interview at DoctorOz.com. — Max Weinstein